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A couple hours left…

I have only a few precious moments left until i am a graduate!

This year has taught me so much…

Ive fallen in, out, in, & back out of love with the same guy all year. You’re a wonderful person & I hope you the best. You deserve it just please dont do anything stupid..like those pot brownies. My advice I’ve danced with the devil plenty of times but you’re like one of my very close friends so please stay strong & close to God because I dont want to see you hurt. & Yes Caleb all those posts were about you. A few that werent were stupid little crushes. I love you & always will. Thank you for being my friend.

I’ve lost/made friends all year. Im greatful for all of this. Without trials you cannot be polished to perfection. Tiffany Ive seen you go through so much & i love you beyond words compared. I couldnt sum up our friendship because words are to simple to say how great it has been. I love you.

To my family. Thank you. Thank you for the pain, suffering, & troubles. But also thank you for the memories, laughter, & love you have given me. I cant wait to show you all what I can do. I will make you all proud I promise(: Im bettering myself to stop a cycle. I promise happiness.

I’ve almost given up. I’ll never give up. Not again. Not on myself, my life, family, or friends. People can change as long as you try.

Becoming a better person. Ive changed so much in this whole year. Switching religions, trying to run away from the truth. I cant do it anymore. Im so in love with the choices ive made. I know its real. I know there is a plan for me that will take me back to Zion & im preparing myself everyday.

I dont know what to say. This year has been amazing & has hurt alot. Ive spent countless hours crying but also enough laughter to weigh it out. My goal is to always love. Always remember the worth of all souls. & to become a better person than i was yesterday. I hope to find that man who makes me strive to become a better person. I need that crutch for my choices. I know that. I hope to marry in the temple & have a big beautiful family.

I will not let anyone take away whats standing in front of me. Every breath every hour has come to this. One step closer <3






True love is blind.

So ive tried to move on from…well the C word. Its a big fail. But ive tried with another guy who is not interested. Even though hes going for a girl 4 years younger than him. Cant please everyone. But than again he only knows her through Stalkbook, I mean Facebook. haha for him more like Fatebook. Im pretty sure he thinks he has found his true love. Anyways. I can get over him fast theres a lot of things that I would accept from him. & not one thing that I wouldnt care to admit to anyone about him. Im not saying or naming names. But i feel like I live in two different words with him. He’s so experienced & im so…not. Who knows im not going to put so much stress on it.

On to another topic.

I went to 2 parties this weekend. 1 was a total Mexican party (no racial slur intended) anyways my friend Claire and I went in with my friend Yudith and it was 99.8% Mexican .2% white girls. It was ok though for me anyways. Being as i have hispanic backgrounds & im half. Than we went to another one & it was …well lame. & got crashed by a stupid drunk girl. Idk who it was but the guy throwing it decided to send everyone home. I felt sorta bad because they broke things and just left.

Today:

I saw my mom and my grandma. & the cutest effin tea cup poodle ever! haha But it was a pretty good Mothers day & I got to see my mom and grandma(:

Future:

School gets out on Wednesday & then my life starts! Im scared to be honest. Also I’ve got some business to take care of. We will see how it goes.







It’s always going to hurt.

Beating myself up over you everyday.
& it’s funny how you have no idea. If I could just open up to you once you’d know I’m not as strong as I may seem. I may be strong but it’s only when I have you by my side. I screwed up big time & it’s going to be the biggest regret of mine….cause I lost you. Hell if I could start this entire year over just to fix that one mistake trust me I’d take back everything. I’m not sure if you forgave but as for forgetting…well you’re doing a better job than I am. I take every single moment we had and put it on this pedestal in my heart. One day I might show you these posts & you’ll laugh. But at least you’ll know I still miss my best friend. Damn Caleb. You deserve better. So I’ll leave you alone. Just know I still love you.






:x

A disguise of self-deception
Hides my secrets perfectly
I’m rejecting my reflection
‘Cause I hate the way it judges me






Text Post Wed, May. 02, 2012 8 notes

Perfectly Flawed

It’s the same slice,
Same blade,
The same lie,
Same ol’ vein

My weight
My face
My height
My race
I’m a mistake.








Text Post Tue, Apr. 24, 2012 124,245 notes

When I’m famous and I appear on TV…

My parents will be like:

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My teachers will be like:

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And my classmates, who ignored me for all these years, will be like:

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Karma, bitches.

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(Source: jennycamui, via giggles-hehe)






Wednesday-Monday

Firstly i know its not monday so dont judge.

But let me just tell you this whole 6 days have been to short with nothing much to do with myself. Its actually been quite a rush. I saw my grandma and she is doing wonderful now(: i love her so berry much! & she really enjoyed her shirt i got for her. Im so happy she could make it to another birthday & feel better that day than any other day. Heavenly Father has truely blessed me with a wonderful family no matter how much we fight. That next day my cousin got into a car accident. It scared the heck out of me because she is 38 weeks pregnant. I mean and she didnt have a seatbelt on. So much for like spending time with my grandma but you know what im happy I was by her side the entire time & i regret nothing. She is a wonderful & strong person to go through what she has and still be strong enough to show it. All in all I’ve had a wonderful week. Im kinda bummed I missed prom…but I wasnt asked & there are only so many times I can go with friends or in a group. But I got to see my family & my grandma and i wouldnt change that for the world. Id miss a hundred proms. Today was a great day we bbq’d and my grandma had a nice day too. Yeah im a grandmas girl. Shes my world. She raised me. I cant help but love her more each day. But this entire weekend wouldnt have happened if i didnt have my wonderful, caring, and understanding boss theresa to have such sort notice & still let me go. I am truely blessed & im going to have to get her a card or somethihng to let in a little on how greatful i am because i really can never show how much it meant to me. So thank you very much. love jessica(:





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